Thoughts

I am sick of boys. I want men. There are a lot of boys in my life, but there are so few men. However, I have been greatly blessed with some amazing men. I just wish there were more of them. So I'm praying for that today. I'm praying for the boys to become men.

I am much calmer about the future than I have been for the past couple of days. I still have no idea what I'm going to do, but I know that God will take care of me. As I was running this morning, I realized that I have so much faith that God will get me through this marathon, but I have so little faith that He will take care of me. I feel like I am constantly taking leaps of faith, but I guess that's what living a life of faith is all about.

God told me to read Esther again yesterday, and I got some new revelations. Everyone has their own time for purification. It is a season. Also I realized that the "year" of purification is figurative. It won't necessarily be a calendar year. It could be a year or 5. I have no idea. And finally the last thing I realized was that the time of purification was merely the beginning of Esther's story. It was her preparation for what was to come. It equipped her for what was ahead.

I think that I have gotten very caught up in this year and I have forgotten to continue looking ahead. I want to have an eternal perspective. I want to live every day with eternity in mind.

Well, I need to get ready for this last day of August...it hardly seems possible that tomorrow will be September. Ahhh!! Peace!

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