Gray Areas

Monday Morning - back to work

This song is about my life: House to Clean
(Also a shameless plug for Lee Ellen Starks)

I rearranged my room last night at about 11:30...good times.

Today feels like I am just constantly doing something....


Several hours later...

I've been having some good conversations with C and K today. Boys make everything in life complicated. Gray areas make life complicated. And whenever I come to God with gray areas all I really discover is that He wants me to come to Him with every situation and ask Him about it.

This is how I feel about dating and about drinking and friendships with boys. Let's take dating for example. In the past year I have had to re-evaluate my feelings on dating probably at least every 2 months. I have been from "I'm never dating" to "Dating is okay, but there is no such thing as casual dating" to "Casual dating is okay" to "God, give me an arranged marriage".

Obviously this is a gray area in my life. And after asking God about it time after time, He finally told me to just come to Him if a situation arises, and I don't know what should be done. It is a situational thing. And every time I keep checking with Him about this area of my life, He just keeps telling me to keep checking with Him.

Just an FYI this area of my life is off limits for the next year. I am not going to date or be interested in dating anyone until at least January 2010. This is God's year. He has asked me to set myself apart and be holy and His alone this year. I figure if He is going to give me a husband to spend the rest of my life with, the least I can give Him is one year of my life. So this year that is completely off limits.

Here's the awesome thing about that. God knows me so well. I get so stressed out about this part of my life, and by making dating off limits for me, I am relieved of all that stress. I don't have to worry about it or even think about it. It has freed me up to enjoy my friendships with guys because I know that nothing is going to happen. What a relief that is!!

Besides that...I realized when I got to my English class today that I read the wrong stories and wrote responses to the wrong people, so I still need to go back and redo that today. Plus I have to get started on my paper that is due on Friday. I'm ready for the semester to be over.

And I'm a little nervous about finding a job this summer. I know that God will provide exactly what I need, but I'm still human and worry a bit about these things.

Life goes on....

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  1. Connally28 April, 2009

    so can i just say that you pretty much change my life?? cuz you do and i love it! =)
    and you!!

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