I hate good-byes!!!

I greatly dislike (hate is probably too strong of a word) saying good-bye...and I am nostalgic about the oddest things. Case in point: I removed an airline checked luggage tag from a bag tonight as I was packing to go back home. It was from July 29th...2008. That was the day I flew back from London. Yes, I had yet to remove the tag off of my bag from a year and a half ago. And when I tore it off, I realized when it was from and my heart was a little sad to see it go in the garbage.

You see what I mean by I'm nostalgic about the oddest things. Tearing off that tag and throwing it away was like saying good-bye to a little piece of my heart. I realize that sounds kind of crazy, but that wasn't just a luggage tag. It represented 7 weeks that changed my life. It represented independence and freedom. It represented adventure and a spreading of my wings. I'm sure I attach too much meaning to meaningless things, but that's just the way I am, I guess.

I have shoe-boxes full of little things that hold memories for me...little things (such as receipts, flyers, etc). But these things mark different points on my journey. They are reminders of a place I visited, a life-changing experience, a lesson learned. I know that they are just pieces of paper, but to throw them all away would be almost more than I think my heart could bear. I can't stand to say good-bye to those little memories.

People are even worse. I have the hardest time saying good-bye to people...especially if I don't know when I'm going to see them again. And when I say good-bye, a little piece of my heart goes with them. Now just like my memories tucked away in shoe-boxes, I may not always think about that person, I may keep them neatly tucked away in a shoe-box in my mind, but they are still there.

Well, on a different note...I'm nearly finished packing up...just a few things to throw together in the morning before I leave. So excited to be back at home!! And I'm very excited to go to the chiropractor on Monday!!! Well, I think M and K just got here, so we are going to watch Star Trek now...one nice thing about break...I have gotten caught up on my movie watching.

Until later...peace out homefries!! Easy

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  1. Hannah Elizabeth08 January, 2010

    I love that analogy, cause I'm the exact same way. You are my kindred spirit. can't wait to see you!

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