an obligatory post

I feel obliged to update this blog...it's almost like when I don't it feels neglected. Yes, I do enjoy assigning feelings to inanimate objects...call me crazy, but in an odd way I get joy out of it.

I am really tired right now...5 hours of sleep coupled with a stressful and long day has just drained me. I started classes today, and I already have homework in most of my classes. I am worried that my senior research is going to require a lot more time and effort than I had originally thought. Add to that the fact that every professor seems to think it is their job to make their class sound like the hardest class you can take. Add to that stress about jobs and grad school stuff. And basically you get my current frame of mind.

I realized this morning how excited I am about the possibility of grad school and teaching. I was praying and I told God that I almost didn't want to give this up to Him because I'm afraid He won't give it back. However, I want His will more than I want anything else, so I gave it up to Him, and we shall see if He gives it back.

I also had to give over to God my work (or lack of work) situation. He will take care of me whether that means I get a job or not.

I'm really excited to have a nice long sleep tonight...stating as soon as I finish this and hang out with Jesus for a little while.

Oh, and I am super stoaked that the weather over the next week is going to be in the 40's and 50's...it still isn't that warm, but it is a step in the right direction. Well homefries...peace out!

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