the beginning of something grand

It isn't every day that you wake up realizing that this day will change the rest of your life. When I woke up this morning, that was the first thought in my mind. Today will change my life forever. I think that realization caused me to approach the day differently. I pushed myself more in my run. I realized that I often hold back from what I could truly be. I don't want to do that. I want to leave it all out there. To live with passion and persistence.

Almost a year ago I started a chapter of my life that I may someday revisit, but it wasn't right at that time. I was so unhappy with the situation and the way everything about it felt. I should have been so happy and excited, but I opened the wrong chapter of my book and had to close it again.

For weeks, no, for months, I have been excited about this day, though. Today I started a new chapter. Today my life changed forever. I am excited, beyond excited. I am equally excited and terrified, so I'm exactly where I am supposed to be.

I told a friend yesterday that as much as I desire to be married, I am not just putting life on hold until I get married. I am going and doing all these things that I want to do because I don't want to live with regrets of things that I could have done or should have done. Today was just one more step on that journey.

There are going to be days in the future where I will not be this excited. There are going to be days where I am stressed and stretched to the max, but there is no growth without the growing pains whatever form they may come in.

But just for today, I don't think there is anything that can bring me down. My life has changed today, and it is definitely for the better.

Peace out yo!

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